Thoughts on poetry teaching with children. Thoughts on being a poet. Thoughts about thinking.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Long Time New Poem
Here are the only two new poems I've written in the past two months, drafts, jottings, musings, stretching the old muscles -- ugh
Still having Eavan Boland dreams.
#1 (for PZ)
No chemo for her
She knew and true
To her heart she blossomed
Into the space around
Where we watch
Each moment with gardenias
And gratitude.
#2 (also for PZ)
Finding An Old Letter From A Steady Friend
Things used to matter so much
I hurt you easily
I was strong, like a vise
around your fingers
where they pointed to
your heart
Now nothing hurts
anymore like a day
you forgot me
standing there not standing
up for myself
down in the gutter of your
laugh
I loved you like a lover
less a friend
we both hated it and
couldn't sleep for the
dreams
Today I re-read your
threats
they seem so small on
the yellowed letter
sweat breaks out
between my breasts
my skin remembers
what I have done under
with my mind
with time
the tip of your tongue
to my ear
lashing --
Monday, September 8, 2008
Working through Boland blogs
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Long August
What do you think about this? (from "Suburban Woman" published in The War Horse, 1975)
II
Morning: mistress of talcums, spun
and second cottons, run tights
she is, courtesan to the lethal
rapine of routine. The room invites.
She reaches to flouresce the dawn.
The kitchen lights like a brothel.
Pretty cool, huh? Stay tuned --
Friday, August 8, 2008
About the Night Sky
We grow accustomed to the Dark—
When light is put away—
As when the Neighbor holds the Lamp
To witness her Goodbye—
A Moment—We uncertain step
For newness of the night—
Then—fit our Vision to the Dark—
And meet the Road—erect—
And so of larger—Darkness—
Those Evenings of the Brain—
When not a Moon disclose a sign—
Or Star—come out—within—
The Bravest—grope a little—
And sometimes hit a Tree
Directly in the Forehead—
But as they learn to see—
Either the Darkness alters—
Or something in the sight
Adjusts itself to Midnight—
And Life steps almost straight.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Poems about kids
The results surprised me. After you take the poll, they show you how you rank. In case the rankings change before you (whoever you are) get there, here's what the results were when I took the poll. Am I really the only person who writes about my kids? What does that say about us as writers? As mothers? I wish I could find the quote from (I think it was) Julia Alvarez who said of course she writes poems about her family. That's what she spends most of her time doing, that's her material.
The other side of the argument was nicely put by Adrienne Rich (in her book the name of which I will insert here when I get home from work) that poetry is the only place where she doesn't have to take care of her kids. Hence, she chose not to write about them.
Hmmmmmm-------
THE READ WRITE POLL
I most often write poems about (choose as many as three):
Memories (35%, 14 Votes)
Feelings (35%, 14 Votes)
Myself (30%, 12 Votes)
Nature (28%, 11 Votes)
Spirituality (23%, 9 Votes)
Love (20%, 8 Votes)
Strangers / people I don’t know (18%, 7 Votes)
Ideas (15%, 6 Votes)
Fantasies (13%, 5 Votes)
Objects (10%, 4 Votes)
My mother (8%, 3 Votes)
Other family members (5%, 2 Votes)
My father (5%, 2 Votes)
Politics (3%, 1 Votes)
My kids (3%, 1 Votes)
Animals (0%, 0 Votes)
Total Voters: 40
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Trying Something New
Jack’s home coughing
Stella’s pushing butterfly in the pool
Somewhere a horse is standing under the wings of an angel
Mom stares with coffee on the porch
Alice keeps face inches from fantasy
Somewhere an angel holds her armpit full of horse for safekeeping
Bob would go without me
Daddy would cover his eyes on the road
Somewhere the angel folds our dream beings beneath her stretch
Somewhere a horse leans out in freedom
Somewhere the red bodies and reddish brown knees
and golden brown edges know their place
blue boulder
white fine equine legs
angel’s crotch
like butter
shadow wonderers in their grey question
line up between that smoke
and where I write
watching
Friday, July 18, 2008
Yeah Kay Ryan!
Who would be a turtle who could help it?
From Flamingo Watching Copper Beach Press, 1994
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Writing Through Cancer
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Old Post from Tangled Swans
Yin
dull
slow, tarnished
waning, softening, aging
wearing out & warming up
refreshing, shining, honing
bright, quick
sharp
Kerouac pun for Al Gelpi
A Pun for Al Gelpi
Jesus got mad one day
at an apricot tree.
He said, "Peter, you
of the Holy See,
Go see if the tree is ripe."
"The tree is not yet ripe,"
reported back Peter the Rock.
"Then let it wither!"
Jesus wanted an apricot.
In the moring, the tree
had withered,
Like the ear in the agony
of the garden,
Strucky down by the sword,
Unready.
What means this parable?
Everybody
better see.
You're really sipping
When your glass
is always empty.
The other cool thing, is the website on which I found this pun - Modern Books and Manuscripts
Houghton Library, Harvard College Library, Harvard University, Cambridge, MA 02138. What could be better than a link to a library that is in the business of acquiring beautiful old and new books, poems, items of desire and importance!
I'm happy about all this today because - if I am lucky - Al Gelpi will be able to serve as my advisor during my upcoming thesis year. My thesis has been approved with a reservation or two - mostly that I narrow my focus - which I knew I would have to anyway. I am looking at the evolution of domestic imagery (laundry?) in American poetry in the second half of the twentieth century. It should be lovely and hard and exciting and exhausting and gorgeous and revelatory - I'm tired already. But this conditional approval of my thesis is a good thing. It's hard to say, but, "yeah for me!"
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Tangled Swans -- Witness to the Collision
Witness to the Collision
The tangled swans have managed it,
they rise, a struggling clump, black
and white, light and clacking.
Black feet, webbed like the sticky
blood, membranous from a womb,
flop and shudder at the ends
Of their dangling legs, as if
empty black stockings were kicking,
dragged up into the air, still the shapes
Of knees and heels, stretched, unreleased.
Above the legs, curl the warm white
bodies, heavy with breast meat, rosy
Brown thighs, warm from fighting,
thrusting and flushed— only hunger
thinks of a swan as a meal, what
Of the cloud—the white smother—
put up your hand there, against
the flank, softly curved, it pulses.
So, then the outside, the white white
still tangled, at odd angles,
wings flawed and shredded as a book,
Huge plates of feathers, sliding
airplanes of silver, 2 wings
into 4 wings, articulating
From the bone—remiges and retrices—
Semiplumes—to the smaller, small
down, quills, then spaces
Between which warm air trembles.
Can you see through the fury
and horrible noise to their
Necks? Where ultimately they tango—
knotted—twisting, as twisted voice,
2 throats inclined and enraged,
Throats locked into smooth
white serpentine undulation of
barking. I don’t think they sing
Any song I understand, but those
tangled swans, so strong,
so broken, reassemble into a sky
I will call up to as they tighten
their bodies together into what
I will call heaven.
And heaven is only a white place,
a silence, an uninterrupted mind,
fluttering, born.
Keeping two blogs up is hard
To prove I mean it, here's a draft from a couple of weeks ago. (Not really today but oh well -- as Jackson would say -- cheese and rice.) This poem was inspired when Missy was hurtling herself along California on an AIDS ride.
the beauty of bicyclists
is an elastic flush
orange pink and red
lycra and titanium
a black thin loping
of human leg
and spoke into the next
rotation space street
the beauty of bicyclists
is a comfort, I'm driving
close enough to see the muscled
calves, the heart-shaped divot
behind the knee, a winking
ankle bone, flashing
like a kid with a torch
in the dark
signaling a friend
in the next house
darkness all around them except
in the bright orange
pink and red fingers
brain flesh, lips
the beauty of bicyclists
laps up the miles of road
between now and all the next
nows, working and work,
the rhythm
the language of the wheel
(you know it's a draft because there are no capital letters)
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
More IRB HRPP AAHRPP poetry
Do you think they will increase our pay?
The flowers are fresh
Moral is a mesh
Good buddy, let's call it a day.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Magnolia Trees, Poems, and Me
I did write a poem about a magnolia tree once. And I've learned a lot about RFK this month. Now if only I were writing more.
The Tree Attended
The rain is okay.
Wind scares me
makes that slap clacking sound
in the flags at the end of the pool,
when I put my head up I think of
skeletons or someone dropping silverware.
The black sky okay, too,
safe and close, oddly warm even when
the window is flat ice under my palms.
Hail jumps sweet,
sugar candy or popcorn,
the shy rain that changed its mind into shapes
big enough to share, then
brags its brightness, dents the air.
When it’s over
the tulip magnolia tree stands like a crossing guard,
a fair shepherdess,
blossoms pink and bruised white,
scattered along the sidewalk in two directions.
But many are still on the tree
jealous of their spring
like new breasts, eager
to fall into whatever the weather builds for their falling
and somehow reluctant
enjoying the shape of the their beauty.
Lisa, see how the tree is as big as a pick-up truck,
powerful, hauling the glistening oxygen,
damp, competent, moving
in the steaming evening,
flowers cupped with rain in the branches
and some in the street.
Everything lies down under the deluge.
The flowers don’t care
where they will fill up with nightfall,
or who sees them,
losing their minds.
Swimming on a Summer Evening
Forgiveness
After you left
I swam on my back
watching the spider web clouds
break up in the deepening sky,
or maybe coalescing,
crystal seeding itself in ice,
or child’s hair in wind.
For a while I could taste the cut grass
from the playing field,
then the rubber chair of the lifeguard,
and the wet soap smell
of the other woman in my lane.
With each breath an open mouth
of surprises, of someone else,
I watched the sky and the evening,
now unpatterned lace,
brittle, fair and random, cloth of heaven,
and the colored flags
as they moved into sight
always five strokes away from the wall.
I found the moon, too,
less than half crescent,
in the western nightfall,
right where we agreed
it would be.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Poetry as punishment?
Monday, June 2, 2008
More IRB poetry
IRB all day --
at night CFR and more
words than butterflies
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Teaching Adult ESL with Poetry
Friday, May 23, 2008
AAHRPP poems
Our AAHRPP deadline is June.
We will finish our submission soon.
If they like what we do
They'll accredit -- woo hoo!
Our praises to all they will croon.
(For those of you who would like to follow suit, it's pronounced "a-harp")
Friday, May 9, 2008
A New Blog
First Blog: First Poem
If there's someone to turn to
I'm full
If there isn't
Then I'm empty.
Published when I was 9, in the fifth grade, in the Palo Alto Times. Thanks Miss Cava, wherever you are. You were a great teacher. I thank you for this gift of poetry in my life.